Yo so remember that shit I mentioned two post ago? well it happened, and I feel..really happy??? Like I feel so happy?? And good??? So I will really start shooting this art work out!!! I already got my ass working on the next Home Depot x FNF shit

Holy shit??? Fifty??

Fifty people who like my art?

Fifty of them?

Oh my goodness- What-

HELLO? WHEN I FIRST JOINED THIS WEBSITE

I SAW PEOPLE WITH 20

AND THOUGHT OF THEM AS FAMOUS

50 FOLLOWERS ART SOON?? IDK WHAT IT WILL BE BUT IT WILL BE SUMN

IM NOT BUSY TOMORROW SO I MIGHT AS WELL PUT MY ASS TO WORK

FULL APPRECIATION UNDER MY 50 FOLLOWER ART'S CAPTION LETS GOO

I FUCKN

FIGURED OUT GARCELLO VOICE

WE DID IT BOYS

WE FUCKIJKF DID TI

Caleb is hot

Oompaville is hot

I kinda wanna make out with him

but at the same time

I WANT TO BE HIM

Tomorrow I have a hypnotherapy appointment and I'm genuinely so fucking scared dude like

I'm so terrified

The idea of me not 100% being under my own control is so scary to me

LOL

IF IM LIKE A DIFFERENT PERSON TOO

THATS SCARY TO ME TOO

When the mf paper buckles:

Bruh

Lately, I've kinda been feeling disconnected from my identity. I know I am a man, but I've let the fear of detransitioning make doubts in my mind. I'm so scared of being wrong. I desire so badly to be a male, to have that deep voice, to have that look, to have that masculine persona, but I'm so scared it's not what I actually want and I'm burying down true feelings. These past long months have been a toll on my mind and fucked up my self-confidence. I just wish I was more trusting of myself, and ever since the start of my grounding I just slowly stopped trusting my thoughts or ideas or feelings. I don't know if that is my fault or not too, like is there someone else to blame or is it just me? Like if I think it's someone else, then will it make me be acting like a victim? I've always felt better with more control in my life, but lately, everything just feels

so out of my reach, so out of my control.

Like how do I know if my feelings or thoughts are true or just me acting like a child? There's this deep dissociation from everything about who I am. I feel like a ghost outside his own body, searching for a way to put the puzzle back together but the pieces are all kinda floating around. I just want to feel more closer to earth instead of drifting away, I want to be more sure of myself.

Imma say it

I held this in for many long months but

I'm a Senpai kinnie.

I did not choose this path, I was born ths way

M sory

I did this to give a friend an idea of a request

but I realized

this also summarizes the dreamcore au I have planned

If you don't know what weirdcore/dreamcore is

here ya go

If I wake up tomorrow and don't look like or sound like Garcello

THERE WILL BE

nothing, I'll just cry